The Happiest Day Ever!

December 12, 2010 will be me and Sarah's 1 year. I love her, we have been through alot but we dont ever fight, I am very happy with her and she treats me like a princess. Christmas Eve me and Sarah will be going to Evansville and spending Christmas with he dad, then coming home and spending Christmas day with the family. :)We just bought her dad and girlfriend their presents and we finished getting dirty santa gifts. :) I cant wait till christmas. :) I love the holidays!

Christmas Presents

When I was little I always wanted roller blades but I never got any, I asked for them every year and never ever got them, still today I ask for roller blades. Maybe this year someone will get them for me for Christmas. I will prolly end up buying my own pair. I love to roller blade and ice skate and ride bikes. I just love my life! I will most definately get you something for Christmas, Mrs. Mathews! :)

Thanksgiving

I'm cooking the turkey, ham, stuffing, homemade mashed potatos, and sweet potato cassorole and also many other dinner and deserts. I love family time with the whole family, they always tell me how well my cooking is. I love to cook and cook and cook, its just so much fun, I have always cooked, I love to make things that people will tell me is good. :) I just like having people tell me that I have some good cooking for a 18 year old.

This Weekend

This weekend will be a blast, Friday I'm gettin out of school at 12:20 and going home and putting up Christmas lights with Sarah, it will be our 11 months. Then Saturday my sister "Sam" will be picking her son up and coming to pick me up at 3 when she gets off work to meet up with my brother and his wife and kids, then we will be going to get some good spots for the Christmas Parade! :) I love going to the Christmas Parade to see all the floats and I just cant wait to see my brother and his kids, I miss them so very much. :) I'm a real big family person. I love to cook and spend time with my family. :)

The World

The world as a whole, looking at the world from space is actually very neat and very pretty, Nightfall is very differant when you think about it, when it goes dark here in Kentucky its still light in California and the world is actually very blue. Seeing the world all lite up. When you think about the earth you usually just think about the United States but really there are a lot of other place you dont think about.

Veterans Day

Veterans have served our country and have risked their lives for us all for freedom! Veterans have really put their lives on hold when they think to serve our country, There are some that have died and their are some that are still living today! My brother is my hero and has always been he is in the United States Army and has a wife and 2 kids. :) Ive always wanted to say thank you to all the Veterans that have put their lives on hold to serve our country.

Juniors

The junior class of 2012 does not listen, They act like they are stupid and don't understand anything they are given from Mrs. Dilback, she try's so hard to keep them quiet and they just ignore her and she just gets so frustrated and she is so lenient and they just take that for granted, like Mrs. Dilback is not a mean person, she is more like a very nice person with standards. Mrs. Dilback is so sweet and she try's so hard to be a good teacher, she acts like she doesn't get upset when students disrespect her but she does, she tells me, Students don't really notice how much teachers do for students.

FLEX FRIDAY

I love having Flex Friday because it encouraging to keep my grades up and do good in school. :) I have A's, B's and 1 C, When working hard it inflicts positive reinforcement to all students to try their hardest and get all their homework turned in and keep their grades up so they can leave at 12:20 on Early Release Fridays and get to do fun activities on Flex Fridays. :)From experience I have tried to keep my grades up so that I can attend activities and leave early on Early Release Friday. :D

Just Because....

Sometimes I just want to cry when I get out of school after being there for 7 hours then coming home and eating a sandwich and going to work at 4 and getting off at 10 every night. It gets frustrating.. :( I feel overwhelmed and tired. I feel like crying every night when I get off work. I've grown up way to fast but it could be a good thing I feel like I am in a 20 year old's body. But I do good in school and I try really hard on my work, I missed that whole page in English because I never saw it and it upsets me because now I have intervention. :(

Today! :)

Sarah has graduated high school so we are all going out to Golden Coral when I get out of school and celebrating that she has graduating the top in her class. I love her so much because she is sweet and she knows that I'm a sensitive person so she try's not to get mad at me to much. We are going to come home and watch movies, Scary, funny, and back when we were kids. :)

Thanksgiving

We always go to my meme's and I make a ham, sweet potato casserole, and my homemade potato's then I always keep the ham for our house for the next day for everyone at my house to have some. I love thanksgiving because the whole family gets together and spends quality time and laughs. We are home bodies we love to be home all the time and have lots of fun when we are together.

This Past Weekend!

I worked on Saturday 12-5:30 Then went to my Meme's and Papa's and ate chili and hot dogs and handed out candy for the little kids. :) Sunday I worked 1:30-7 Then went home and worked out and made homemade vegetable soup and Me and my family just hung out and watched scary movies and played games. :) I love my family more than anything in the whole world, Wednesday is my momma's birthday and we are going to Mexican food and Friday we are going to go out to dinner for Sarah graduating school. :) This week will be a very good week for me. Tomorrow we are having a pot luck at work and I'm making my chili. :)

Halloween

My best Halloween was when we would go to my grandmas and we would eat chili and hot dogs, we love going over there and then we would go trick or treating. I love Halloween then we would go home and do just our family little thing. I think I will be just me, My mom is a pirate, my step - dad is a warewulf and I just love dressing up for Halloween but I have to work this Halloween so I don't think I will be able to go trick or treating. :( Its very sad.

Friends

What is a true friend? Well a true friend should be someone that will always be there for you no matter how tough the situation is or how mad they could be at you. A true friend should be there when you need them and not be the one to get in a fight for you because that is ridiculous. The ones that are going to give you a home if you get kicked out, the ones that are just gonna have fun when you are most vulnerable. I'm pretty sure that when you have some friends that will do that for you then you are set, I love my friends and if you don't think you could love your friends then you should probably get some new ones.

Ghost

One time me and my brother Allen and sister Sam went to this house and it was more that creepy, We had so many people with us but we all got really quiet and you could here this voice coming from the upstairs so we waited and waited and then as we were about to leave we heard it getting closer, they were talking to each other as we were sitting there in their living room. We ended up seeing them walking threw the house then we followed them to their kitchen where they stopped and talked some more, then I got creeped out and ran but I think about it all the time and we talk about it and I am still today scared of the dark because you never know if your house is haunted or if someone or something lives with you. Just keep in mind that you could always have some roommates that live there rent free.

My mother

We don't get along very much because she doesn't like Sarah, And since I moved out I've been doing better in schools and I told her about it and she told me that that was impossible and it really hurt but I don't really know if we will ever be the way we used to be. :( I just wish she would just believe in me and stop yelling at me whenever she see's me.

When I was little

I was really scared of a monster in my closet and I was very scared of the dark, I loved when I was able to sleep with my mom and then I would ask her to go to sleep with me in my room because I wanted to be able to sleep in my bed but mom didn't want to.. It was not very nice because she didn't act like she cared. Now I live without her and sometimes I miss her but when I talk to her she just kinda ignores me and says its impossible that I make good grades or that I still have a job, So I just don't really talk to her at all.

Yesturday

10-19-10 was Mine and Sarah's 10 month anniversary. :) I've been with her for 3 years. We have a lot in common and we live together we barely fight and we are constantly having fun, We like to cook together, Do projects, and we like to just go out and shop for our house. We will be going to Diamond Lakes with her mom and step-dad on Saturday to the haunted thing, The return of Jason.

Sarah Michelle Hamilton!

Sarah is my girlfriend, She is always there for me, we always have fun together, Yesturday we went to the pumpkin fest together and we had so much fun we even had a picnik together because we had a really fun day! I Love her! :)

Student Aid!

Im Mrs. Dilbacks student aid and if I have no homework I will grade all her papers and she will have an easy day, I love Dilback because she is a great teacher, I will always learn something from her and have something to talk to her about, I buy her twin girls ribbons and stuff and it's so much fun! :)

Spirit Week!

I Love spirit week cause you get to dress up and look cute but also funny at the same time, Last year I dressed up everyday, This year I'll prolly just dress up maybe a couple days of the week. I will most definately dress up on senior day, Red, White and Blue! :)

Birthday Party!

I will be throwing a birthday party for my girlfriend on October 8, 2010 she will be turning 18. I love her with all my heart! She has been the love of my life since 2007 she is always there when I need her, She never hurts me or she cheats on me, she loves when I spoil her and she spoils me back. I love her so freakin much! :)

Work!

When I Go To Get My Schedule I Look And Find My Name, But I Notice Something Different I Have 30 Hours This Week, Its Shocking To See That I Am In School And I Have Homework And Work Every Day But 1 Day. I Feel Crouded And Small Because I Have No Room To Do Anything.. :( I Love Work But Sometimes I Just Dont Wanna Work Because I'm So Gosh Darn Tired. When You Think About It, Everyone Sometimes Wake Up And Just Dont Feel Like Doing Anything And Just Say They Dont Wanna Get Up Because They Are Tired, But We All Feel That Way But You Dont See Us Skipping School, We Wake Up And Go To School Weather We Like It Or NOT...

TONIGHT! :)

Me And Sarah Will Be Going To Walmart And Getting Food To Grill Out With And Then Get Fishin Poles And The Go To Petsmart And Get Some Menos. Then We Will Go Back Home And Fish And Cook. Im Very Happy And Excited To Spend Quality Time With Sarah And My Family! :) Moms Gonna Be So Very Proud Of Me Because Of How Good Im Doing In School. :)

Love!

Love Is A Great Thing To Have, If You Have Love You Are Are More Happier And You Are Always In A Good Mood. As For Me! I Have Love And I Have Everything I Need To Make Me Happy Because She Is Always There For Me When I Am Feeling Down Or Not At All Sad. She Is Always Putting A Smile On My Face! :)You May Think That Love Is Not Ment To Happen Because Sometimes It Doesnt Work Out But Its Ok Because Someone Out There Loves You And You Have Nothing To Worry About. :)

I Am The Total Opposite To My Mom

She Likes To Do Things Her Way And She Is Very Strict On Some Things But I On The Other Hand Am Very Laid Back But Still Neat And Organized, We Do Everything Differently And She Is More Like Her Mom. I Am Just The Total Opposite To My Whole Family. Thats A Good Thing.

Sunday Night.

Me and Sarah went to the Power Teams last night at Bellveiw Baptist Church and I got to meet Sabor she's like freaking amazing, I got tons of pictures with her and we even talked and hung out kinda. It was great, Sarah got her to sign the back of her shirt. I think that the Power Team is GREAT!

24 Things about me

I am:
1.Funny
2.Beautiful
3.Sweet
4.Smart
5.Caring
6.Thoughtful
7.Honest
8.Trustworthy
9.Dependable
10.Athletic
11.Independent
12.Thankful
13.Helping
14.Forgiving
15.Christian
16.Singer
17.Courageous
18.Confident
19.Successful
20.Proud
21.Neat
22.Industrious
23.Good with animals
24.Photographer

Candy, Yoda

Candy is my beautiful Welch Corgi Cocker Spaniel mix, I love her and she is almost 13 years old, I wish she could live forever but no one can live forever, She sleeps with me every night, And I cuddle with her and she gives me kisses and she is just the cutest dog ever! Yoda is my lovely cat thsat is almost 7 and he is just so gosh darn beautiful, I love him with everything, He sleeps on my yummy at night and snuggles my neck when he wants to get up.

Lost

There were many times I felt lost when Sarah wouldn't talk to me, She would always choose someone else over me. She never wanted to hang out with me if we went out in public because she didnt want anyone to see us, she was always scared someone was going to see us and she would get in trouble or screamed at by some girl. She is my pride and joy, she is someone I could never live without, We live together because she cares and she wants everything best for me. I love her with all my heart and I dont think I could ever spend my life without her, She means everything to me and like she does things for me that no one ever has done before but I could honestly say she is my one TRUE love and I'm so lucky to have her in my life as soon as now, Like I'm very blessed to have got her in high school because most true loves for people arent for a long time in life and my true love is here and now. I love her with all my heart, I could honestly say she is everything to me. I'm so glasd that we never have to deal with losing her ever again because we are together forever!

The person I share everything with

1. Brown hair.
2. Brown eyes.
3. Beautiful.
4. Happy.
5. Funny.
6. Sweet.
7. Loving.
8. Caring.
9. Adorable.
10. Comforting.
11. Cuddler.
12. Friendly.
13. Kind.
14. Helper.
15. Hard Worker.
16. Listener.
17. Great Personality.
18. Beautiful Smile.
19. Great Cook.
20. Loving Girlfriend.

Me and Mommy (Sarah's mom)

She treats me like her own daughter, I love talking to her, She is such a sweetheart. I love her so much, We read books together and talk about EVERYTHING, she listens when I need someone to talk to, She gives me what I need, She loves when I clean the house, Thats my chores. I love the laundry and dishes. I'm truely blessed to have her in my life! I honestly dont have any idea what I would do without her.

Joey (Grand-dad)

Joey was like my grand-dad, he would come over and talk to me and play with the cats and we would watch tv, He was such a kind and loving man everyone that knew him would tell you the he was a great man, He loved his family and grandchildren, I loved him alot, He would bring books over to the house and we would just talk about them. If only he was here today to talk about how nuch he loved us.

Sadness

I lost my mom because she kicked me out & I miss her and my birthday is coming up, I'm kind of scared that she wont call and wish me a happy birthday , I love her and always will, but she doesnt ever care or really doesnt show it, I use to think I couldnt live without my mom but now I'm not so sure. I love her with all my heart but she hasn't talked to me to even tell me what I did wrong or if I did anything wrong at all.

My Bedroom

When you walk into my room you see my bed, with a rural blue comforter on it, when I go to sleep I smell the sweet smell of my beautiful grlfriend after she gets out of the shower, I taste the minty fresh toothpaste, I feel all warm and comforted by her warm embrace. I hear the soft heart beat of my love. I see Sarah's beautiful face, I touch Sarah's hand & hold her close, I feel so happy when I'm there because they make me so included and make me feel like a family member.

Today

Me and Sarah, Went to her dad's for her sister's birthday, The drive out there was just so peacful because we just sat there and listened to music and talked to eachother, She is perfect for me, I love her with all my heart, She just is such as a great person, We get along perfectly.

Snow Days

Me, Sarah, Her mom, and sister were going to get our taxes done at Daymar cause my mom works there and does taxes. We got done and it was snowing bad, we were driving down frederica street and it was like right by sonic, we hit black ice and our car slid and did a 180, it was so scary, the next day me and Sarah went out to play in the snow, I walked outside and she pushed me down in the snow and it was so much fun I just smiled and got back up and and pushed her down in the snow.

Me, Little girl!

I sit and think about when I was a little girl and wonder if my father ever really loved me, he told my mom if she ever got pregnant again and she did with me, and then he left her 6 weeks after I was born, you know how much that messed up my life but now he wants to be in my life and I dont know what to do, if you could get in my shoes for a day could you tell me what I could do or even remotely think about something to do? Its so depressing that my father didnt want to be in my life until just now in my life... This is rediculous, I love my father because he's my father but I cant call him my dad because he wasn't in my life at all when I was a kid growing up. I just want to know really what to do!!! Help

Stream - of - consciousness

The ideal day for me would be,to sleep in with my girlfriend by my side until like 11 and wake up.It be hot and summer outside and we would take a walk with the dogs. Come back and take a shower then cuddle on the couch.She would put on music for me because I love to listen to music while I fold laundry,that is so calming and relaxing for me,then I'd clean house like really good.When it started to get later in the day I would cook a big dinner for the family,Barbeque chicken with green beans and carrots and corn on the cob with homemade mashed potatos,and a chocolate cake with chocolate icing.
Do I really know who I really am or do I only know what people tell me? I think I know me like true me thats within myself.I know that I make the decision to come to school when I get up,I was sick one day and mom said I could stay home but I came to school anyways because I wasnt dying and I havent missed a day of school I hate not coming to school.I believe that if you can make decisions that are good and you can say no to someone then you have control over yourself and you are a good person for you.I also believe if you can truely agree with your parents then you also have control over you.
What power do we have over ourselves? I believe that if we get up in the morning and do everythinf you need to do for yourself "Brush your teeth, eat breakfast, take a shower, get dressed, come to school, do your homework, do your chores, all that your parents tell you" then you have power over yourself. I believe that if you truely can make choices for you then you have everything you need.

Scaryyyyy

It was a cold winter night and me and my girlfriend were sitting in her bedroom laying down to go to sleep and all I can remember is when we layed down she left the room for about 5 minutes and I was putting on my pj's and I heard a knock at the window, I was so scared but I looked anyways and there was a man standing there looking at me with a knife, I was the most horrifing experience because all I wanted to do was scream and run but I just stood there with my mouth dropped and I just was in so much shock, Then I'm running out the door and I ran up to her moms boyfriend and I just was like someone is outside our window, He's going outside and he was like no one is out there, turns out that I was just seeing things or just didnt know what it was. I end up sleeping in the living room and I wake up to the lights getting turned on and all of a sudden the lights flicker and I scream and the lights go out, we opened the door and there was that man again so I run to the back room and start crying because I was so scared. I didnt know what was going on because I was not in the room but then I hear Sarah scream so I ran to see if she was ok but I couldnt find her, I couldnt find anyone in the whole intire house, I was so very scared and like I was looking all over the house and couldnt find anyone at all so I go outside and I still didnt understand where everyone went because all 3 cars were out there so I start crying and then Sarah shakes me and I'm crying and screaming. Turns out that it was all just the scariest dream ever! :(