Sadness

I lost my mom because she kicked me out & I miss her and my birthday is coming up, I'm kind of scared that she wont call and wish me a happy birthday , I love her and always will, but she doesnt ever care or really doesnt show it, I use to think I couldnt live without my mom but now I'm not so sure. I love her with all my heart but she hasn't talked to me to even tell me what I did wrong or if I did anything wrong at all.